Seruan MASJID

Sahabat terbaik :-)

Beberapa hari lagi maka tamatlah 2011.. sekejap saja masa berlalu.. selamat tinggal perlu dilafazkan kepada umur 19ku yg akan menjejak angka 20 pada tahun 2012 nnt.. tepuk dada, tertny, bagaimana iman di benak hati? makin mantap kah, atau semakin surut? sudah bersediakan utk pertemuan dgn ilahi? Wallahualam, cumenye hrpan berkembang mekar agar tahun yg bakal menjelang ini mampu membawa aku beberapa tapak ke hadapan dlm persediaan bertemu ajal yg bakal berkunjung tnpa kita sedari.. Sebelum itu, trpggil utk menulis akan satu sirah sahabat nabi.. Alkisahnya pada suatu hari, Saidina Ali terserempak dgn Saidina Abu Bakar. Kebiasaannya, bila berjumpa, mereka akan memberi salam dan bertegur sapa, walau bagaimana pun tidak pada hari itu kerana mereka tidak menegur antara satu sama lain. Keesokan harinya.....

"Wahai sahabatku Ali, kenapa semalam engkau tidak menegurku ketika bertemu?"

"Wahai Abu Bakar, aku tidak menegurmu kerana aku telah bermimpi sebuah istana yang amat indah di syurga. Aku bertanya untuk siapakah istana ini? Dan dijawab, istana ini untuk manusia yang menegur sahabatnya terlebih dahulu ketika bertemu. Aku mahu engkau memperolehinya wahai sahabatku."

"SubhanAllah wahai sahabatku Ali, sesungguhnya aku bermimpikan perkara yang sama dgnmu. Aku mahu engkau memperolehinya, kerana itu aku tidak menegurmu dahulu..."

Itulah secara ringkas keindahan persahabatan jika kerana Allah. Pernah sekali ketika sibuk dlm melayan "peminat2" facebook, hehe, terbaca pula akan satu petikan hadis.

Dari Abu Karimah iaitu al-Miqdad – di sebagian naskhah disebut al-Miqdam-bin Ma’dikariba r.a. dari Nabi s.a.w., sabdanya:

“Jikalau seseorang itu mencintai saudaranya, maka hendaklah memberitahukan pada saudaranya itu bahawa ia mencintainya.”

Setelah membaca hadis ini, sy teringt akan seorang hamba Allah yg baru aku kenali.. Persahabatan kami bru sahaja terjalin, org kate, msih lagi dlm proses kenal mengenali antara satu sama lain. Awalnya, kehadiran dirinya dalam hidup aku samar, atau dlm kata lain, aku fkir yg die mgkn another person yg akan singgah dlm sejarah hidup seorang SHAZWAN SAZALI. Dikenali dlm keadaan yg sungguh berlainan, itu pun selepas dikenalkan oleh seorang lagi sahabat sekelas aku. Mungkin telah tertulis dlm takdir hidup, beberapa hari selepas itu, kami bertemu secara kebetulan dan berbual buat kali pertama.. perkenalan biasa yg selalu aku alami tatkala bertemu dgn mana-mana org baru dlm hidup aku. Perkenalan tersebut berjalan sperti biase, aku kini tahu namanya dan juga serba sedikit latar belakang dirinya. Kemudian selepas itu, msing2 membwa haluan msing2.. jrg sekali kami bersua utk meneruskan persahabatan yg sudah ada pembuka kata.. kisah persahabtan ini seolah2 tergntung, sperti yg slalu terjadi..

Namun satu event di rumah aku mempertemukan kami semula.. ini kali ketiga aku melihat dirinya.. Tidak lah kami terus rancak berbual, tetapi kisah persahabatan td disusuli dgn koma dan kata tanya.. Siapa sebenarnya dirinya hamba Allah ini? Entah bagaimana, takdir disusun rapi oleh kuasa ALLAH SWT utk kami meneruskan persahabatan ini. Dirinya meminta utk bermalam di rumah aku, sbg tempat persinggahan seblum dirinya menghadiri rumah kwnnya yg tidak jauh dari rumah aku. Aku membenarkan. Maka malam itu menjadi saksi bagaimana kisah persahabatan ini berterusan.. Banyak juga kami bercerita malam itu.. Sedar xsedar, bnyk juga persamaan dirinya dgn diriku.. Kisah hidup remajanya tidak jauh beza dgn aku, malah lukisan dan corak keluarga kami juga bnyk persamaan.. Hatta, terfkir di hati, mgkn pengenalan tempoh hari sudah ditentukan utk aku bertemu dgn seorang sahabat yg mgkn boleh sama berjuang dgn aku dlm mencapai misi utama dunia, memperoleh hidayah, keberkatan dan mencapai al-jannah, insyaAllah.. tapi, semuanya masih terlalu awal dan kabur utk disimpulkan..

Tamat sudah satu penggal.. waktu beristirahat (cuti) berkunjung tiba.. kehadirannya ke rumah aku bwat kali kedua meneruskan kisah persahabatan yg sudh terjalin.. cuma kali ini, perasaan kekok itu semakin kurg dan aku makin selesa utk berbicara dgnnya.. Keluargaku sudah mengenali dirinya.. maka, keselesaan itu sudah tersedia timbul.. kami mengenali antara satu sama lain dgn lebih jelas dan rapat.. Allah, ramah sungguh dirinya ini, berbisik sesekali dlm hatiku.. Adik aku juga memberitahuku perkara yg sama.. Itu yg mnjdkn dirinya mudah dikenali dan didekati.. Disbbkn itu, begitu mudah utk aku menceritakan kpd sahabatku yg lain berkenaan dirinya.. Aku tidak malu utk bercerita, bahkan berbangga apabila berbicara soal dirinya.. Tertanya sekali lagi, masih adakah manusia sprti ini di dunia?

:-) tersenyum aku menulis garapan kali ini.. msih tidak sgka dpt bertemu insan ini sbnrnya.. Mengimbau semula kisah sebelum bermulanya perjuangan di INTEC utk semester ketiga.. Kami bersua utk satu tugasan di INTEC.. Coretan persahabatan berterusan.. Hati msih lagi sgka dia hny seorang lagi manusia yg akan hadir dlm hidupku.. Manusia biasa yg sering shaja berlalu pergi.. Aku pula msih trus mencri erti pershabatan sebenar.. mgkn sudah aku ketemu, tp berapa rmaikh bilangannya berbnding yg hny singgah dlm hidup ku tnpa coretan kish yg pnjg.. sekali lagi sprti yg ku kata, takdir penentu segalanya..

Selepas hbs tugasan yg diberi INTEC utk kami, maka bermulalah semester 3.. Sudah tidak ku sgka, kami bersua sekali lagi, dan kali ini akan lebih kerap ats sbb jarak dan ukhuwah yg semakin kuat.. awalnya, kesedihan menjelma kerana terpksa berpisah dgn rakan2 sebilik yg lama, perit rsenya perpisahan itu.. Namun, hari demi hari, minggu berganti minggu, bulan berselisih bulan, masyaALLAH, persahabatan yg terjalin antara aku dgn dia seakan2 membawa nafas baru.. Tanggapan lama yg ku sgkakan bahawa dirinya sama dgn insan lain jauh berbeza.. Ad sesuatu yg abstrak memberitahu aku bahawa dialah orgnya.. Insan yg selama ni aku tggu buat mengisi coretan kisah hidupku.. Insan yg sedia berjuang dgnku.. Insan yg rela berkorban utk persahabatan kerana Allah SWT.. Aku berharap bygn perasaan ini akan mengukuh, nama itu perlukan waktu, maka biarlah masa yg menjadi penentu..

Membawa analogi yg ckup mudah utk difahami.. dlm perjalanan menuju ke puncak bukit, perlulah utk kita mengeluarkan tenaga dan keringat bagi mengatasi segala halangan yg cuba menghalang jejak ini terus melangkah dan mendaki.. begitulah juga persahabatan ini.. kesabaran itu dirintih bagi mengatasi liku2 yg berlaku dlm persahabtan ini.. kdg kala aku rse diri aku tidak diperlukan sbagaimana aku memerlukan dirinya.. Aku juga merasakan diri ini kerdil di dalam hatinya berbnding org lain yg jauh lebih hebat berbanding diri aku.. aku juga rse, aku keseorangan dlm memperjuangkn persahabatan ini.. Namun semua itu menjd satu peringtn kpd aku bahawa Allah sdg menguji.. sejauh mana keikhlasan aku dlm pershabatan ini.. aku trus bersbr.. kdg kala cemburu, geram, marah menghantui diri, tetapi disorok atas dsr syg akan pershbtan ini.. jika perlu, aku lontarkn suara hati yg kecil ini.. kdg kala juga, aku rasa mungkin tggapan aku salah bahawa dia lah sahabat yg slama ini aku tunggu.. tetapi aku cuba bersgka baik.. dan sygku pada sahabat ini membuang jauh prasangka bruk itu.. hati aku juga terus berbisik bahawa dia lah sahabat yg aku tggu.. Oleh itu, aku trus menunggu dan bertahan, mengharapkan kebenaran suara hati..

Mungkin dirinya tidak seperti aku.. aku gemar meluahkan perasaan, menunjukkan ekspresi, tetapi tidak dirinya.. Apabila berbicara, baru aku tahu gerangan apa yg terjadi.. kdg kala srba salah kerana mudah bersgka buruk.. ini kelemahan yg sering diminta dirinya utk aku ubah.. insyaAllah, aku akan usaha.. aku tidak tahu sejauh mana pndangannya terhadap persahabatan ini, tetapi itu terpulang kepada dirinya.. Ckup bg aku utk merasakan kemanisan pershabatan ini.. benar, tidak berani aku utk mendustakan kata2 bahawa aku berharap syg aku terhadap sahabat ini berbalas, namun aku tidak boleh memaksa.. Aku tidak gemar memaksa.. Biarlah dirinya yg menentukan.. sekali lagi, aku akan trus menunggu kebenaran suara hati..

Dirinya? gembira mnjd khabarku tatkala berita darinya menjd hiasan genggaman.. dirinya? mgkn bgnya suma rakannya sama.. tiada bezanya.. Namun bagi ku, dia ada bezanya.. Dirinya? aku cuma perlukan dirinya utk lebih mudah bertrus trg n tidak berselindung.. Dirinya? tidak tahu knp dia orgnya, Allah shaja yang tahu..

Kisah pershabatan ini msih terlalu awal utk mempunyai penutup.. malah, aku xtidak inginkn penutup itu.. aku sanggup berkorban untuk dirinya ats izin Allah.. Cuma, aku tkowt kehilangan dirinya.. aku tidak mahu kehilangan dirinya.. aku tidak mahu kehilangan sahabat terbaik ku ini, bkn utk kali ini.. Biarlah pershabatan ini dilindungi ALLAH SWT hingga ke akhirat kelak.. Aku juga tidak segan utk mencritakn pershabatan ini ke sluruh dunia jika mampu, kerana aku berbangga mengenali dirinya, aku berbgga mempunyai sahabat seprtinya.. seorang yg membawa senyuman dlm hidup aku.. yg memberi aku kekuatan utk berjuang demi agama.. yg bisa aku ceritakan kepada generasi seterusnya.. yg boleh aku ingati selagi diberi kekuatan olehNYA.. Wahai sahabat jikalau anda membaca ini, aku tidak boleh berjanji apa2.. tetapi lafaz INSYAALLAH menjadi selingan utk aku menjadikan kisah persahabatn ini sesuatu yg indah, yg dihiasi manisan, yg dilindungi ALLAH SWT.. Perlu aku khabarkan, aku syg akn kamu wahai sahabat.. semoga ALLAH membenarkan suara hati aku, utk menjdkan kamu yg terbaik, utk menjadikan kamu sbg shabat yg selama ini aku tnggu.. sekali lagi, aku sygkan kamu, semoga kisah ini berterusan dgn lafaz Bismillah dan diiringi takbir ALLAHUAKBAR..

Hadis Rasulullah SAW bermaksud: “Tidak beriman seseorang itu sehingga ia mengasihi saudaranya seperti ia mengasihi dirinya” (Hadis Riwayat Muslim)

Aku cintakan ALLAH, sygkan PESURUHNYA, kasihkan IBU BAPAku, lindungi KELUARGAku, dan pedulikan SAHABATku..

Surat dari Syaitan

(Surat ini akan membuat anda benar-benar berfikir)

(Sebenarnya surat ini hampir membuatku gila saat aku membacanya, tapi

aku harus forwardnya kerna catatan kecil dibawahnya)

SURAT DARI SETAN UNTUK MU

Aku melihatmu kemarin, saat engkau memulai aktiviti harianmu.

Kau bangun tanpa sujud mengerjakan subuhmu

Bahkan kemudian, kau juga tidak mengucapkan "Bismillah" sebelum memulai

santapanmu, juga tidak sempat mengerjakan shalat Isha sebelum berangkat

ketempat tidurmu

Kau benar2 orang yang bersyukur, Aku menyukainya

Aku tak dapat mengungkapkan betapa senangnya aku melihatmu tidak

merubah cara hidupmu.

Hai Bodoh, Kamu millikku.

Ingat, kau dan aku sudah bertahun-tahun bersama,

dan aku masih belum bisa benar2 mencintaimu .

Malah aku masih membencimu, karena aku benci Allah.(astaghfirullah)

Aku hanya menggunakanmu untuk membalas dendamku kepada Allah.

Dia sudah mencampakkan aku dari surga, dan aku akan tetap

memanfaatkanmu

sepanjang masa untuk mebalaskannya

Kau lihat, ALLAH MENYAYANGIMU dan dia masih memiliki rencana-rencana

untukmu dihari depan.

Tapi kau sudah menyerahkan hidupmu padaku,

dan aku akan membuat kehidupanmu seperti neraka.

Sehingga kita bisa bersama dua kali dan ini akan menyakiti hati ALLAH

Aku benar-benar berterimakasih padamu, karena aku sudah menunjukkan

kepadaNYA siapa yang menjadi pengatur dalam hidupmu dalam masa2 yang kita jalani

Kita nonton film 'porno' bersama, memaki orang, mencuri, berbohong,

munafik,

makan sekenyang-kenyangya, bergosip, manghakimi orang, menghujam orang

dari belakang, tidak hormat pada orang tua ,

Tidak menghargai Masjid, berperilaku buruk.

TENTUNYA kau tak ingin meninggalkan ini begitu saja.

Ayuhlah, Hai Bodoh, kita terbakar bersama, selamanya.

Aku masih memiliki rencana2 hangat untuk kita.

Ini hanya merupakansurat penghargaanku untuk mu.

Aku ingin mengucapkan 'TERIMAKASIH' kerana sudah mengizinkanku

memanfaatkan hampir semua masa hidupmu.

Kamu memang sangat mudah dibodohi, aku menertawakanmu.

Saat kau tergoda berbuat dosa kamu menghadiahkan tawa.

Dosa sudah mulai mewarnai hidupmu.

Kamu sudah 20 tahun lebih tua, dan sekarang aku perlu darah muda.

Jadi, pergi dan lanjutkanlah mengajarkan orang-orang muda bagaimana

berbuat dosa.

Yang perlu kau lakukan adalah merokok, mabuk-mabukan, berbohong,

berjudi, bergosip, dan hiduplah se-egois mungkin.

Lakukan semua ini didepan anak-anak dan mereka akan menirunya.

Begitulah anak-anak .

Baiklah, aku persilakan kau bergerak sekarang.

Aku akan kembali beberapa detik lagi untuk menggoda mu lagi.

Jika kau cukup cerdas, kau akan lari sembunyi, dan bertaubat atas

dosa-dosamu.

Dan hidup untuk Allah dengan sisa umurmu yang tinggal sedikit.

Memperingati orang bukan tabiatku, tapi diusiamu sekarang dan tetap

melakukan dosa, sepertinya memang agak aneh.

Jangan salah sangka, aku masih tetap membencimu.

Hanya saja kau harus menjadi orng tolol yang lebih baik dimata ALLAH.

(disunting from FACEBOOK)

What a week :-)

17 December 2011.. The time is 2.05am.. just arrived from KLIA.. ha, usually by this time, mmg xd mood nk bkk pc, agak keletihan gak lah, but after a week yg sgt menarik, terpanggil ag sekali utk bkk laptop n bwat garapan baru.. Yea, went to Bali n Jakarta.. It was a pleasant holiday.. Cuti2 Indonesia kali ni.. Smntara blum nk tido ni, rjin2 lah menaip.. so, here we go :-)

Hari sbtu yg lps, 10 december, flight aku ke jakrta was by 5pm.. Naik royal dutch airlines, lbh kurg MAS je, cume MAS lbh baik lh in the sense of layanan, makanan n everything.. Flight attendance royal dutch plak mat salleh yg kbnyknnye dh tua.. haha, xpelah, aslkn dorg were very friendly.. Flight entertainment? bgus.. bisa aja aku tgk glee n how i met ur mother smpai hbs.. hehe.. Aku xtrus ke Bali, transit dlu kat jkrta.. That was my 2nd time to jkrta..

Nothing much has changed.. Macet nya, masyaAllah, 5kn pny jarak pun leh jd 1 jam.. tension tol.. Airport plak leak sne, leak sni, mmg prlu dibaiki.. nk tmpung thousands of ppl, seriously, sumthis has to be done.. Smpai je jkrta, my uncle rent a car with a driver to drive us here n there.. 1st, we went to a restaurant called MBAH Jinkrak (dlm melayu, mksd die, nenek yg gile, haha).. sume kat sane sgt pelik.. jam die pusing terbalik, menu die pelik (contoh: es kuntilanak, smbal iblis) n toilet die plk really make ppl confuse.. Pria lelaki, n wanita.. wanita lh kn.. huhu.. tp toilet die mcm klu laki, we hav to go to BUKAN WANITA.. n wanita shuld go to BKN PRIA.. haha.. phm kn? xphm pun bwat2 lh phm.. huhu.. Pas mkn, we went to my uncle's house @ bellagio apartment, mega kuningan.. sgt cntik kowt, bwh die mall, n then view die almost all buildings in jkrta.. Marriot and Ritz Carlton are right in front of the building.. serious, lawa sgt..

The next day, flight aku ke Bali pkul 10 pagi wktu jkrta (11 malaysia).. smpai bali, driver yg pakcik aku booked tggu kiteorg kat airport bali.. it was supposed to be just a mini van, tp sbb ape nth, kiteorg dpt bus.. only for 12 of us je.. haha, puas hati kn? mula2 die bwk g check in hotel (it was a condotel) called sunset residence..

after check in letak brg sume, kite start tour.. to tell one by one by order, seriously, i cant remember, so i shall write

whatever that cross my mind ok? antara yg kiteorg prgi on 1st day was ULUWATU..

kat situ ad temple yg sgt besr.. owh yea, bali bnyk hindu buddha, so temple bnyk lah.. tempat die sgt lawa, sbb die sblh laut.. tebing die mcm cite twilight tuh.. sgt2 lawa, laut plak leh nmpk dsar, mmg indah ciptaan Allah.. however, xdpt nk nikmati pemndgn sgt sbb monkeys were everywhere.. n they were really, really bad.. specs org diambil n dipatahkan.. my slippers pun jd target! klu aku xpkai satu hal, ni tgh jln ni, and one of them came to me n try to steal my slippers away.. luckily there was a man, holding a stick prgi ketuk monyet tuh.. huhu.. Camera org dicube utk rmpas nya.. haha.. pas cube lari2 from monyet2 tuh, kiteorg g tgk kecak dance.. tarian kebudayaan org bali.. sgt best.. psl epik ramayana, if xsilap, mse sejarah f4 dlu ad cite ckit.. tarian die mengingatkn aku pada *cap kali cap kali cap cap cap* yg kiteorg bljr during orientation kat intec dlu.. huhu.. nnt try tgk kat my fb, ill try to upload.. (coming soon...) Malam kiteorg mkn btol2 tepi laut.. kat pantai.. sgt best.. pastu dtg org dtg main gitar.. hehe.. it was very calm.. tenang je mkn, mknn die pun sdap.. after mkn, pulg lh ke hotel, maka berakhirlah hari prtama di bali :-)

2nd day.. awal2 pagi kiteorg prgi ke tanjung benoa, klu xsilap lah nama die.. ni tourist attraction.. laut yg sgt bnyk activity.. nk bwat sume mmg mahal lh.. so, mula2, kiteorg prgi ke tempat penyu.. daripada yg kecil, smpai penyu yg bsr, sume ad.. n yea, i managed to hold a turtle yg umurnya dh 70 tahun.. so heavy ok..

then ad lah binatang2 lain kat situ.. snakes, eagle, lizard, bat, pgglah seekor2.. haha, mcm kat zoo plak.. then, my uncle asked me whether nk try parasailing.. of coz lh nk kn.. so cube lah.. Ya Allah, awal2 gayat lah, iyelah, naik parachute, mcm nk jtuh je trgantung2 kat ats, smbil kene tarik ngan boat kat bwh.. die bwk round a few minutes.. from top, leh nmpk laut kat bwh yg sgt jernih, n u can see dasar laut which is very awesome! gayat tu hilg lps tgk agungnya kuasa Allah.. n rse sgt skjap plak parasailing tu, tp it was a very nice experiences.. pas hbs jln kat tanjung benoa, kiteorg ke tanah lot.. ad temple jgk, cume this time, view die lagi lawa, undescribable..

huhu.. klu nk tau, my profile pic kat fb tu kat tanah lot lah.. tgk sunset, subhanallah.. xterkata lah :-)

3rd day.. my mom's fav day.. almost the whole day shopping lah kn.. tp serious, brg kat bali sgt murh.. thats why my mom spent her money a lot kat bali.. huhu.. pas hbs shopping, kiteorg ke KINTAMANI.. kat sni ad gunung berapi yg dh xaktif lh, but the view, again.. haha.. bkn lah nk kat pe, tp Bali mmg a very nice place.. utk sape2 yg minat ngan landscape ke, nk hayati pmndgn, Bali suits u a lot.. kat kintamani, kiteorg mkn kat lereng bukit, where we can see the whole gunung berapi.. tourists bnyk kat sni.. hbs je mkn, aku try lh walked around the place, n suddenly a few metres from where we ate, ad ladang binatang yg xleh disebut (u know who, haha).. gemuk2 sume, tergelak aku, ad pic aku snapped..

nk view, leh view kat fb.. hbs je jln kat kintamani, kiteorg back ke selatan bali blk, but stop kat Bangli tgk tmpt org proses kopi.. kopi yg famous kat indonesia, like most of the ppl know, mstilah kopi luwak.. org kate kopi nye lebih creamy, aku rse mcm same je.. haha.. nth, but kopi luwak sgt mahal.. yg bestnye, dorg ad tnm tmbakau juga.. n since die bg tembakau tu free, with my parents permission, i tried, FOR THE 1ST TIME IN MY LIFE, mcm mne rse tembakau itu.. haha.. mgkn yg ini fresh kn, so rse die mcm manis2 ckit.. yg best, batuk aku stgh jam pastu bru brhnti.. haha.. tulah 1st n last, just for the sake of experience.. :-)

continuing my journey, we stopped at UBUD plak.. ni mmg town utk shopping jgk lah.. my mom mmg suke giler tempat ni, same goes to my aunt.. hehe.. smntara tggu dorg shop, i went to eat ice cream @ gelato.. duk sorg mat saleh sblh aku, mula2 diam je.. pas die dgr aku speaking with my cousins, die tny aku where do I come from.. aku ckp aku from KL.. die kate, die just nk tau sbb how come aku ngan cousins aku can speak english well, compared to locals yg kbnyknnya xtau english.. then aku borak ngan die.. he is from germany.. my aunt kbetulan ad skali time tuh, n since my aunt tau bhasa german, so dorg borak.. die terkejut mula2, sbb melayu leh tau german.. haha.. die cite psl life die, best giler, perantauan rupenye.. staying in bali until march 2012.. just to get to know the world.. terfkir jgk nk jd mcm tu sbnrnye :-) mlm tu, aku ke KUTA, nk tgk mcm mne nite life bali.. Owh yea, klu dlu kish bom bali tu, kat Kuta lh, die ad mcm memorial utk org2 yg terkorban mse bom aritu.. but kn, nite life die mmg havoc giler, kalah BB.. haha.. xnk lah cite sgt psl KUTA ni, tp serious, sgt dhsyat nite life kat KUTA.. huhu..

hbs sudh journey aku di Bali.. so aku stay kat bali 4 hari 3 mlm.. nk garap satu per satu mmg payah, sbb bnyk sgt yg aku prgi kat Bali.. but these are the interesting places n moments yg aku leh share.. after bali, aku pulg ke jkrta semula.. nothing much to tell.. just shopping je bnyk.. nk g mne pun payah, macet (jam) die, Ya Allah, teruk giler.. aku sempat lah prgi Grand Indonesia and Plaza Indonesia, tmpt2 ni best, tp brg2 die agak mahal.. brand mcm zara, topman, pull n bear, esprit bnyk lh kat sni.. be4 hbskn garapan kali ni, nk citer jugk sumthin.. indonesia sgt open compared to malaysia.. 1, mse dlm taxi ke bandara (airport), org taxi tu terkejut bile my dad n me story psl malaysia.. die kate malaysia pny agama kuat brbnding indonesia..

khwin cmpur agama bleh, korupsi sume.. terlahir plak rse bgga jd malaysians.. hehe.. 2nd, haha, ni xleh tahan, bnyk sgt ukiran, lukisan yg bercorak 18++.. nk tergelak aku, ke mana2 pun ad.. even keychain pun ad dibwatnye bnda xsenonoh.. (MUSHROOM!! - yg phm, phm lah ye, haha).. apa2 pun, i enjoyed my self a lot.. klu ad peluang, insyaAllah, leh ke bali lagi, klu bleh, ngan kwn2 plak.. :-) leh tgk keagungan kuasa Allah yg tiada tandingannya.. ok, so long for now, lain kali update lagi.. nk tgk gmbr, insyaAllah, xlama lagi, adalah kat fb.. hehe.. aite, jam pun dh kul 4 pagi.. tidur dlu ye.. Assalamualaikum.. salam coretan.. :-)

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Bingkasan 2011

12.45 am, 22 November 2011.. Here I am, in front of the desktop, feeling happy for Malaysia team which just won the gold medal in the sea games.. sbnrnye dh lme plan nk bwat garapan ni, even sblum ni dh ad draft dh pun, tp nth mcm mne, draft tu leh plak terdelete.. its ok then, rewrite jelah, plus excited nk tulis ni, nothing to do cuti2 sem ni.. here we go..

1^st of January.. I went to celeb new year @ bb.. seriously, sgt trkjut ngan keadaan kat sne.. heard a few of tourists yg kate “I thought Malaysia is a muslim country..” smpai mcm tu skali.. yelah, bdk2 in the middle of the road, some of them yg drunk, some of them yg half naked, cant imagine yg keadaan seteruk mcm tu.. terkejut sbb mostly melayu, to be more specific, Islam.. mmg some of ppl akn kate I am lame, psl ni pun nk ungkit, but hey, we r still muslims, n there r boundaries that we should take cre of. We r giving bad impression to others sbnrnye.. nk kate menyesal prgi, xde lah, at least I saw what was happening n still happening to our society. Bangga juga sbnrnye when I saw some of the muslims yg still bertugas to make sure that conditions were under control. Badan pencegah maksiat giat melakukan tugasan, ape2 pun, menjadi tugas kite bersama utk make sure that gejala ni dpt diatasi one day, insyaAllah..

2^nd semester in INTEC.. still PBSM (persatuan balik setiap minggu) awal2 tu.. biaselh, someone yg dh biase living kat KL and xprnh duk asrama, its hard for me for not to go back every weekend.. haha.. but luckily, my housemates in cendana were so cool.. They were very fun to hang out with.. they thought me the meaning of Islam, the way that we should convey ourselves.. Plus, I learn the meaning of true friendship.. they were there for me when I needed them.. ble dh lme ngan dorg, my life in INTEC was getting better, n last2, tergugur keahlian PBSMku.. stay ngan dorg during weekend, kdg2 xbwat pe pun, main game, borak nth pape, but still, it was very fun.. xlupa jgk when we were still in cendana, me n my housemates love to play pillow fight.. bpe bnyk bantal yg dh hancus, credit to che pah yg snggup korbankn bantal sendiri shingga terkuar sume bulu2 yg ptt.. haha.. tgk muka Ain time pillow fight, dh mcm nk perang dh.. serious cuak.. when I played the game with him, I will stop playing whenever he made the face.. haha.. horrible.. but ain, u were a tough fighter.. haha.. mun pun cuak ngan hang.. owh yea, Mun, someone yg always there for me.. love to talk with him, n die lah yg slalu rebut tilam ngan aku.. xkish pun, sharing is caring, ye idak? Hehe.. to irsyad, ok, sgt kecik ble ckp ngan die, ilmu sma tggi ngan height die tuh.. haha.. just kdg2, sgt klkr ble tgk die, especially time nk kjut pagi.. romantic kowt.. haha.. zakirin, weeeeeeee, xnk ckp bnyk lh, segan.. haha.. :p

1^st of May, my birthday.. ok let me recall what happened. I was sitting in front of my laptop, finishing my bio report.. since isyak, I saw my housemate mcm xkeruan, skjap duk blik, skjap kuar blik, n kdg2 duk blik rmai sembang ape nth.. I was preparing myself for fight-or-flight situation sbnrnye.. hehe.. n tetibe, when the clock was closing to 12 am, fawzul came to my room.. senyum2, n he sat besides me.. blum smpat pape, the room was dark n kek msuk.. aww, haha, sgt sweet of my frens.. dorg came in with cakes, dgn lilin sume.. sgt trkjut, n I thought that was the only surprised.. after dh nyanyi2, suddenly apek asked me to go out jap.. xtrfkir pe yg akn jd, so I went out.. n suddenly, aizul n azri came out form blik sblh with 2 baldi air n jirus kat aku.. tersgt lh kejam.. blum sempat aku nk bwat, a few packets of tepung landed on my head.. pnuh satu floor tu ngan tepung.. sian zul, xpsl2 die kene ngan aku.. haha, apek lh bleh sorok dlm toilet, n when I came after him, he ran away until trlnggap sink smpai pecah.. haha.. havoc giler mlm tuh.. blum hbs ag, knon2 lh dorg nk ended up everything n nk kemas all the mess yg dorg dh bwat.. mop pny mop, after that, air mop yg dorg dh perah msuk dlm baldi, dicurahkn on me.. yg best, air2 sedap tu got in my mouth.. argh, rasa dia, pergh, kaw hbs..!! bising giler mlm tu, smpai pak guard naik.. mule2 skem dh warned dh yg pak guard was on his way up, tp sume ingt yg skem was doing another prank.. tp rupe2nye btol.. haha.. bwat dunno jelah kn.. anyway, it was superb cool guys.. I enjoyed myself, seriously, I really did.. thxs to all yg involve.. not to forget, abg nash, ain, madi n azre who came to intec to celeb my birthday as well.. sush2 je masak all the way from KL, serious guys, sgt trharu..

Hbs sem 2.. cpt mse brlalu.. time cuti, we hang out as usual.. some of my frens came over to my house for a few days be4 going back to their hometown.. this is when I got to know Aisar.. a Kelantanese who I never talk to before.. mayb pnh, but just bg salam or just simply about work.. nothing personal or yg sewktu dgnnya.. he came to my house, n he chose me to be his subordinate (haha, lme xgne prkataan ni) for orientasi short course.. yea, he was the leader n I was his penolong.. orientasi utk short course sgt mncbr.. we r not given any latihan or what so ever, just bantuan from lecturers yg trlibat, itu pun nsb bek dorg ad.. 1^st day of the orientation week agak kelam kabut.. some of them dtg without any documents or files since dorg bru dpt tau psl offer from sponsors msing2.. owh yea, sblum trlupa, nk share lh jgk psl 1 parent ni.. she came to me n asked bout my course. I said I am doing alevel medic n going to pursue my study later in India.. she was shocked by saying, “owh, knp prgi India?” and was asking bout my spm result.. to cut short, she was underestimating me, n other seniors yg akn ke india.. I know india is not as good as US or UK dr segi social life n sbgnye, but hey, sheikh muszafar studied in india n look at him now.. kn? Anyway xkish pun, typical parents, just wish them all d best.

Aisar best.. die sorg kwn yg fun to talk to.. even though he told me he is not a good listener n dislike of hearing ppl stories which r not important, I got along with him well... after orientasi, we got to know each other better.. n coincidently, I was called by HEP to be the fasi for IPROKHAS n aisar pun ad skali.. he sat besides me in the bus, n we talked bout a lot of stuff.. rsenye dlm bus tu, kiteorg dua yg ckp plg bnyk.. hehe.. plus, time tu xknl lagi rakan2 KTJ n ALIS yg lain, biaselah, kite ni junior ALIS lagi time tuh.. hehe.. arrived at Asahan, at 1^st I was not in the same room with aisar, pakat pny pakat, we got the same room.. lagi lah kn, haha, mlm2 lmbt tido, pagi2 pas subuh baring balik.. nama je fasi, nsb bek xlmbt sgt g dewan, klu x, haram jaddu.. hehe.. owh yea, we got very close time iprokhas.. time tu bru sedar, owh sbnrnye, aisar is not the one that I thought before.. someone yg hny mix along ngan geng2 die.. he’s cool.. J

MINGGU DESTINI SISWA.. again, I was called to be one of the facilitators.. what so fun about this week was the experience in Azween resort.. Sebelum mds, kiteorg hav to go for kursus dlu, for team building.. There, I met someone yg used to know before, tp xdelah rapat sgt – aiman. N turn out he becomes my roommate now.. haha.. knl die time f4, prefect KL pny gathering kat Sri Garden. Well, I thought he was the head prefect of his school.. he has the charisma, fun to talk to. Mse kat azween, his bed was next to mine.. so mlm mse nk rehat tu kire mcm reunion gak lah, err.. haha.. we talked, got to know each other more.. I talked about my past, n he talked about his. A very good listener.. More to talk about this guy later.. hehe.. Back to MDS, Alhamdulillah, everything went well.. As the leader of this year MDS, I was a bit disappointed when we let Mr Kesh down during the 2^nd day, however we manage to handle everything well for the remaining days.. Yg plg xbleh lupa, we planned to prank mr kesh.. This time, involving Cikgu Hassan.. Mr kesh, if u read this, im very sorry.. haha.. idea miss ferry anyway, saya yang menurut perintah.. muke mr kesh yg suspen, cuak tu is still in my head.. haha, cant believe die kene ngan kiteorg mentah2 je.. terbaik lah semua.. everything about mds is so sweet.. I got to know new people, new frens, n the most important is, I got to know the meaning of friendship and togetherness.. J

Hello 3^rd semester! Woi, cpt giler tua.. mse berlalu dgn sgt pantas.. Can’t believe dh jd senior in INTEC.. New semester, new college, new roomies.. Aisar, aiman and mad.. 3 of them bleh dikatakan well-known in INTEC.. all of them are JPK, n they are friendly, so xdelah trkejut klu nk kate dorg ni dikenali ramai.. Bilik atas pun sume JPK jgk.. in short, im surrounded by all the JPK.. haha.. during the 1^st and 2^nd semester, my impression for them were not really good.. yea, they walked only among themselves, they talked among themselves, so rse mcm dorg x bergaul ngan org len.. as for me yg duk kat KL, I was like, “what the heck with these people, duhh?” ha, mcm tu lah.. haha.. asl I sounded like b**ch sgt ni? Never bother.. until now, my ego sgt tggi.. those who knows me tau lh kn how shazwan sazali really am... xkn tgur org klu org xtgur.. it is not a good behavior, I know, changing2! InsyaAllah becoming someone better nanti.. thxs to ICODE, I started to know them one by one, and turn out, they are like what have been thought.. ok lah, giler2, u know, jenis mcm tu, I like being with them, even though I am not JPK and its sound so weird when they call me JPK+1, as if that “1” is referring me.. huhu.. back to the story.. ble sebilik ngan dorg, ade 1 feeling yg bwat aku rse sgt sush nk mix in.. yea, dorg sume dh lme knl, bonding between them sgt giler kuat babeng.. sometimes they talked thing which I know nothing about.. blur ayam jap.. nthen, kdg2 ble ckp ngan dorg rse mcm xmsuk. Xtau knp.. so I tried to blend in.. mcm2 bnda pelik aku bwat, especially mse birthday aisar.. aku bwat prank kne kn die.. rmai yg aku tarik utk involve skali, poor guy, kne torture mentally for a week.. huhu… I thought it will make us closer, but tgk2 aisar was a bit shocked with what I did.. so sorry for that bro, never thought of that coming.. menyesal pun ad, tp nk wat cne, just hope that u forgive me n it gives u memory which make u unable to forget us, or me to be specific.. huhu.. I did all of that for good sbnrnye.. hope u understand..

Aiman.. my roommate.. haha.. mule2 awkward gak ngan die ni.. jenis yg xkish dunia nk terbalik pun xpe, jnji xkco hidup die.. kdg2 klu kco hidup die pun die xkish.. ad gak manusia seHAVOC die ni kn.. tp dlm keHAVOCan die ni, die jenis yang setia, utuh pd relationship.. whenever I got problem, he came to me and asked.. plus, he is one of my colleagues in ORBIC (organisasi bahas intec).. sgt rjin buat kerja, a very good leader and very good follower.. Pnh minx die bwat ini and itu, jrg sekali die bangkang, n hasil kerja die sgt bgus.. mcm Hari Induksi Orbic, we managed to settle sume dlm sehari je.. haha.. die pun teman borak smpai pagi buta.. kcian tol lh dorg ni dpt roomy like me who talks a lot.. huhu.. sorry for that.. but seriously, xpnh nyesal knl korg, even though kdg2 rse mcm sush nk blend in ngan korg, but korg xkish with my existence.. Aiman, serious, gonna miss u man ble ko dh fly Ireland nnt, u r just simply one of the best I have ever met..

Mad.. I knew him since the 1^st semester, tp mcm2 tu je lah.. we met at the stadium, when I know die jual prepaid pny reload.. and then a few days later, he sat beside me in the bus and we talked.. bru tau die bdk saser, bla bla bla, sume2 cliché pny perbualan.. haha.. u know what I mean.. never thought he can got close to me, until mse raya, he came to my house.. itu satu, then kiteorg hangout rmai2 kat KL, n die tny, “wan, aku tido umah ko mlm ni bleh, sbb sowk aku nk prgi umah kwn aku”.. so I called my mom, n she said no prob.. oleh itu, haha, I let him stayed in my house for a night.. fyi, he is the 1^st fren from intec who stayed at my house and he is the one yg plg bnyk dtg my house.. kire2 mayb ad lah dlm 10 kali.. mayb lebih.. im fine with dat, mule2 mmg lh janggal, becoz I dunno him much, but from time to time, kiteorg chat and got to know each other, n here we are, housemate dh.. hehe.. he is freaking damn friendly.. mse mula2 knl tu, rse mcm dh 10 tahun knl.. especially when he talked to my family, as if he knows my family dh lme giler.. bleh byg x, he woke up during subuh, then die prgi dapur, nmpk my mom ngah masak n trus tny, “mak cik, ad nk tolong masak x?” haha.. I was there, and what can I do was only laugh.. im going to india with him.. he is now my besty, talk to him about everything, even kdg2 mlm, we chat until xsedar dh subuh.. mad is every1’s fav.. kdg2 rse mcm layak ke nk ngaku die besty, sbb rmai je yg close to him.. the answer is only with him J

Ma’am.. haha.. that’s what my frens have been calling Aida.. simply a girl I just got to know this semester.. 1^st semester, xknl org, 2^nd sem, bru start knl org including aida tp knl2 mcm tu lah.. 3^rd sem bru start rapat.. thxs to orbic yg sdkit sbnyk merapatkan aku dgn rmai org.. When I started to know her, I thought she is another girl yg giler2 kind.. ala faham2 lh kn.. tp lame2 knl, she is different from what I thought.. she is there whenever I need someone to talk to.. n when I am sad, she is there to make me laugh.. together with her fren fuzah, leh giler kepala otak.. haha.. they are frens to a fren of mine, Ain Nabilah.. xpnh sgka, org yg slalu jd music background when Ain called me, rupenye2 fuzah n aida yg dh pun rapat ngan aku skrg ni.. ble dh rapat, org pun start lh scandal kn, biaselh tu.. klu deny, mkin menjd2, so diam2 jelah.. plus, me n aida never bother pun org nk ckp pe.. we did nothing wrong, n msing2 ok je ngan life skrg.. at least when I need a girl’s opinion, aida is there for me.. kn aida? Hehe.. sorry for all the mistakes I have ever done.. n hrp ur 1^st impression towards ne tu dh hilg, sbb that was totally not right.. haha.. syukur of knowing u da, insyaAllah pershbtn dilindungi Allah S.W.T.

A lot of things happen this semester.. Semester ni bnyk mengajar aku erti persahabatan.. dan juga, what I learnt is, we cant count on ppl too much.. sometimes, kite hny boleh depends on ourselves sbb org yg kite sgka akan ad utk kite will not be there pun.. bkn nak kate we hav to live alone, no, but we hav to prepare ourselves that ad possibilities yg we hav to stand by our own utk keadaan trtntu.. n percaya mne pun kite kat someone, there should be 1 perasaan berjaga-jaga dlm diri kite to prepare for fight-or-flight situation.. mayb org yg kite prcya tu betray kite, so dgn perasaan berjaga-jaga tu lah yg akn make us live and grow stronger.. papepun, hargai friendship becoz friendship yg baik tu xkn dtg slalu, ble mse trtntu je Allah akan kurniakn dkat kite, kite je yg xsdar shingga kdg2 kite trlupa yg prbuatan kite melukakan hati rakan kite.. smpailah kwn kite tu dh xd, bru kite nk nyesal.. by that time, don’t u think it is just a little too late? Xlupe, just be ourselves. Sbb pe, I can say this sem, aku byk cube utk mnjd org lain utk puaskn hati sesetgh pihak.. tp dlm cuti2 ni trfkir plak, if mmg dorg kwn yg baik, they can accept me for what I am.. yg baik tu kekalkn, yg bruk tu dijdkn teladan, but if org still xleh trima kite mcm tu, back off je, we don’t need org yg xpndai nk hrgai org lain in our life.. they only amek kesempatan ke ats kite and ble kite sush, die xde pun for us.. ppl like that, watch out je.. J apa2 pun, to my new housemates, u guys are simply the best.. miss u guys already..

A new start of 3rd Semester

semester 3 berkunjung tiba, n xlama lagi maka bermula lah cuti raya.. sekejap sahaja rsenye, hmpir 2 bulan sudah semester 3 bermula.. time flies..

anyway, nk cer jgk lah the sweet n bitter of my life dlm permulaan semester ni.. before this sem started, i was one of the Pemimpin MDS (orientation week for the juniors).. it was fun n seriously, i learned a lot of new things.. plus, knowing new people really enlighten my life.. for example, AISAR AHMAD.. before this, aku knl dia hny pada nama.. tgur2 mcm tu jelah.. becoz of orentation week, IPROKHAS n sbgnye, i got to know him more.. mungkin sudh ditakdirkan, he is now my housemate.. haha.. still in the process of getting to know each other, like people always said, there will be a lot of obstacles of building a strong friendship.. so sar, sorry for any inconvenience or any wrong doings that i made.. Semoga sahabat dunia akhirat.. InsyaAllah..

besides than him, MUHAMMAD and AIMAN are my new housemates as well.. i knew these 2 quiet a long time already, tp mcm tu jelah.. pun dlm proses nk knl lbh dalam hati budi msing2, for now, they r just what i expected.. AIMAN is a funny guy, u can talk anything to him, he will gives u responds.. U will never feel afraid to talk to him, although sometimes the responds that u get from him are weird and unexpected.. MUHAMMAD, owh yea, im going to INDIA with him.. which means, ill be seeing him for another 6 years.. the period will be extended if we are destined to work at the same place after finishing our studies.. He is a nice guy, easy to talk to.. n things get easier for me since he sells topup, by that, i dont hav to walk far anymore to reload my credit.. hehe.. I always talk to him, mayb because among all, he is the one yang btol2 sekepala.. apa2 pun, sincerely speaking, kdg2 rse neglected gak.. AISAR, AIMAN and MUHAMMAD already knew each other and they hav strong bonds among them, making me a bit hard to fit in.. They are the JPKC, they went to a lot of places together, ran a lot of activities together, so for me to squeeze in between them, it takes a lot of courage n times.. Sometimes, i rather be quiet becoz i just dunno what to talk to them.. I always pray that things will get better day by day.. N hope they can accept me for who I really am.. InsyaAllah

ALiS CREW.. another new thing for me.. never expected to join, until one day, HAZIQ and KAK FIZAH asked me to join IPROKHAS, not as participant, but as PEMBANTU FASILITATOR.. from that, i got to know more people.. More new friends.. Until now, the friendship among the crews seems to be so strong.. TQ to everyone in ALiS for accpting me into the team.. Hope to gain more benefits by joining all of ya..

There are a lot more to write.. but time does not allow me to do so.. to be continued when i am really free.. thats all for now.. happy weekend! :-)