Assalamualaikum
and hello readers. Let’s write something in English shall we? Or let’s just mix
everything around like what other Malaysians always do. That’s why we have
Manglish isn’t it? This is our right to use what we own. So that everyone can
read and understand well. There are a few reasons why I use English in this
writing.
1.
So that I will still master this language no
matter where I am standing now.
2.
By using English, I seldom can express my
feeling well. If I am happy, people will not notice much from my writing. If I
am sad, same thing happens. I don’t want readers to make conclusion on my
feeling while reading this entry, let me, myself know what kind of mood I am
using while posting this entry.
3.
I’m so missing English. What will happen to my English
after finishing my study here? Owh no, have to plan well or take classes
right after finishing my degree later.
Here
we go.
LIFE NOW
1
month and 2 weeks since I’ve been here. Settling down just well. Coping with
situation here is more difficult than I thought but everything is still under
control. Meet a lot of new people and seniors. They are really kind and have
been helping a lot since the 1st day I reach Jakarta. Life in UKRIDA
is a lil bit different compared to my life in INTEC (referring to campus life –
study, facilities and everything related). UKRIDA is almost like school where
we should wear uniform, and then local students are under the age of 18. The
way how students here think and act is different as well. They have different
thought on certain situation. Plus, they are more outspoken and brave to speak
in front of others. They dare to make mistake and ask silly questions, but for
them, silly questions could lead to good answers. They are pros and cons of being
a student in UKRIDA. I mean, everywhere is the same. No matter where you are studying
at, there must be pros and cons. Place is not a matter to be discussed, but how
we live in that place is what really matters. Being a human, a normal human
(superhero or hard-hearted human are excluded), we need people around us to
build us up. No one can live by their own. Behind every great man stands a
woman. Ever heard about this phrase before? Let’s not focus on the word ‘woman’
and focus on the phrase as a whole. We need each other to climb up the
mountain.
The
question now is, do I have companions who can walk with me to the finishing
line?
Sometimes,
I do feel that I’m walking alone, only accompanied by shadows which make me
feel safe, but less secured. Let’s think deeply into this statement. Understand
well.
BECOMING ME
I
have my own potential, everyone does. Everyone has their own ability to do
something for the world, the only different is when and how. In Malaysia, there
are a lot ways for me to show who I really am, what I can commit, what can I do
for the people. Here in Indonesia, maybe it is still too early to show who I
really am. Sometimes, since people don’t know me much yet, they look down on
me, especially when I talk on religious stuff. I know I’m not a Hafiz, not even
from an Islamic school or society, but I do know a few things about Islam, I do
know what is the purpose of me being created to this world. Just because I don’t
wear Kopiah or Songkok 24/7, doesn’t mean my point of view should be neglected.
Give me a chance to speak. Give me a chance to show my potential. I know what I
am capable of.
What
I need is a chance.
HOPE
Ive
been told by a lot of people to stop posting things which can make me feel sad.
Seriously, I’m not that sad, but I do feel disappointed. It’s different. Why?
Because I put too much hope. Too much hope on my dreams, too much hope on
others. In the end, hope remains hope. Some people gave me a lot of promises,
but they didn’t fulfill them. What I really want is a friend who can hold my
hand and together facing all obstacles before reaching the finishing line, a
medical certificate, becoming a doctor. But where are they? My mom used to tell
me, don’t expect people to act exactly like what we wanted or what have we
expected. When we hope on them too much, the more disappointed we will be if
they do not perform exactly what they have said. For those out there who make
empty promises, thank you for giving me such a good lesson. What I learnt is,
no one will look up on us unless we ourselves do and my favourite quote is – friends
come and go, and only true friends stay. Good friends are like stars, looking
upon you, shining above you, can’t be touch but will always around when you
need them.
I
know you guys are out there, but please don’t hide, I need you guys now.
AVERMENT
I am
not sad. I just need to have someone to share my thoughts, to share my feelings
and to share my world with. Every people need someone to stand. We could never
walk alone to achieve success. We could never be on our own in different part
of the world. We need each other. Ukhuwah, and what I need from ukhuwah is the
sweetness which I can taste. That is the part that I am missing now. If I am
the one who is making mistake, don’t run away, tell me what have gone wrong.
Don’t
neglect me even though there are thousands of great people who are better than
me out there. I’m not as good as some of us, I realize that. I’m not good in
indoor soccer, not so professional to talk about religion, but don’t neglect
me. Teach me. Guide me.
There
is something from me to share with you, readers:
Five benefits of accepting people as they are.
1. It avoids resentment and dissension. Who likes being told what to do and how to
be? Not me. Do you?
Isn’t it really the same as being told that we are not “good enough?”
2. It brings closeness. When people know that you truly accept them,
trust develops, they open up more to you, and a closer bond develops. In particular, it improves relationships
with our children, our loved one, and family members.
3. You experience greater personal growth. When you accept others, your focus changes
from them to you, which allows you to work on fostering your unique skills and
talents as well as improving your shortcomings.
4. It enables you to let go of control and enjoy
the many rewards that occur when you do.
5. You have more peace and serenity in your life
from the above benefits.
What I ask is, please avoid ‘double standard’. I thought we
are supposed to be together in this journey.
That’s all for now. SERIOUSLY, NOT SAD AT ALL. Just to
point out what is left inside.
Thank you and Assalamualaikum.
1 comment:
:-)
be strong :-)
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